Believing that God Can Do Anything

I preached a few weeks ago about the fact that if we believe that God lives in us, this same God who raised Jesus from the dead, then we have to believe that there is a storehouse of possibility living within us, bringing the dead that have become our constant companions back to life. But I think, deep down, I'm still working on that issue. I don't quite know what to believe for myself. I don't know how to ask to be raised to new life. When the vomit of life sticks to me, trying to infect my insides, I forget to ask to be healed. I assume that someone else needs to be healed first. I deny myself the healing because I don't ask. Yet Jesus would turn to the paralyzed man and ask him, Do you want to be healed? To the blind man he would ask, Do you want to see? To the demon possessed man's parents he would ask, Do you want your son to be whole? And they wouldn't assume Jesus wanted to heal someone else first! They would quickly shout out YES! And so I believe it is possible for the dark cloud that has been following me around to disappear. I believe it's possible for the life of God to conquer the failures that surround me. I believe God is able to provide for me enough (money, time, love, health, will power, creativity, etc.) to care for my family, peace for my husband so he can finish school, growing my daughters into young ladies who believe and live their faith. I believe God can do these things, because I believe in resurrection and . . . as I've also said in my sermons a lot lately . . . I need resurrection.