Pastors Don't Make Much Money

I continue with my desire to be content with what I have, but I am finding with rising gas prices, a pastor's salary just doesn't cut it for a family of four. I guess this is the point at which I look at reality.

Perhaps the hardest part of admitting that pastors don't make much money is acknowledging it when my salary is above the poverty line, is above what many Americans are able to earn on a work-3-jobs-to-make-ends-meet income. I am a professional with a professional salary and professional duties. I have to lead worship, counsel those in times of need, plan programs, envision the future of the organization, and understand business administration. Yet, because I have been called by God to this, I am supposed to graciously receive what is being given to me, albeit, not enough.

I find myself looking for other jobs that would not be as satisfying as this one. I find myself wondering what it might be to have an income that tripled or even quadrupled mine. (notice in my dream state I skipped even doubling it, knowing that that amount would also be less-than-ideal). But I really wonder what it is I am looking for. I want to live happily, freely. I want to not worry on those off weeks when I don't get paid if I will be able to stretch things enough to pay all of my bills. I want not to be the bearer of bad news to my husband-student that he is not to touch the bank account. I used to think that much of my frustration was the accumulation of student loans that come due each month, but even those are in deferment and we still struggle. I know that there will always be bills and taxes. I know that I won't get away from them with a larger income. And I know that a boost in income will not take away the desire I have to be a pastor. Heck, usually I'm even good at it. How would I make the transition from pastor to "development coordinator" or "sustainable building coordinator?" While I am extremely interested in green building and eco-friendly homes, I wonder how I would even get started in a completely different business. Personally I'm sure I could tie it together spiritually, but how would I transition my life from counseling and planning worship to encouraging new builders/buyers to go green?

If you're lost with this post, I'm sorry. I'm just so stuck. I want to respect my husband's desire to go to school without the interruption of a job, but it hurts that I suck in the income department. enough said. I hope to get out of this mood soon.